I faltered this cycle. My positivity gave way to a clawing negativity. Had my wife not drawn my attention to it, it no doubt would have been a slippery slope to darkness if not depression. Things just began to get me down. Its source was the fact that I could not shake the nausea this cycle. I felt dreadful constantly well into my second week. The source may well be my own doing, in that my reluctance to adhere to a prescribed oral hygiene regime may have left me with a pretty severe case of oral thrush, which at its worst causes nausea and vomiting of which there has been much this cycle - even resulting in another overnight stay in hospital on Monday night.
Back on the upward slope again with my head in the clouds, despite a healthy dose of man flu and a continuing battle with oral thrush, I am once again seeing many positives. Had I never fallen ill, my family (two brothers and parents) would not have visited me in New Zealand. They would never have had the opportunity to spend so many weeks with my son (and he with them) getting to know us as a family and - as one brother pointed out - getting to know my wife and I as a couple and feeling that I am in good hands here on the other side of the world. It also gave me an opportunity to spend two weeks with my next brother, whom I had not seen for that long in fifteen years or more and four weeks with another brother whom I had not seen for that length of time in twenty five years.
I am surrounded by an amazing immediate, intermediate and extended family, supportive friends, and an astoundingly supportive and understanding employer, all of whom continue to go out of their way to do anything they can for me. I am one of the luckiest people on Earth ... and I know it.
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